liver failure, lung cancer, HIV, OD, suicide. We think we're exempt, we think: I know how to handle it, we think: I have plenty of time to change my ways. I'll get to that later. Nothing bad happened last time. Then our loved ones are sitting there stunned, wondering; "what the fuck happened?" our vices are our self-destruction, legal or otherwise, none are exempt. I will carry that harsh truth w/ me always.

The last time I was in Manhatten was for a Hells Kitchen meeting a few years ago. It smelled like urine. I went back this week for some Wireshark training. It smelled like urine this time too. I like trees and mountains and fresh air thank you. But there sure was plenty of colorul and interesting things to look at. I didnt get out too much due to the shitty weather and the impending storm which cut my trip short, but I got a few photos. More here

WTH? somebody update this website already!

Lets see. Whats going on lately... Well, I turned 40 a couple of weeks ago. Yep. Ya know when I was 20, I told myself when I hit 40, I'm going to kill myself if I havent already died from "partying". I tell ya, I'm now 40 and I am in the best shape of my life. Spiritually, mentally and physically. I am absolutely LOVING life. More now than I ever have. I dont know what the hell I was thinking back then, but it was obviously diseased. They say when you get clean to make a list of what you expect out of recovery. I never expected this. Beyond my wildest dreams as they say... Also I just celebrated 11 years clean. Not a big deal to most earth people, but for a drug addict like me, its truly a miracle. I am forever grateful for NA and the gifts it has given me. Two of the most important gifts are a beautiful and loving wife and an amazing daughter. I try to show my wife the gratitude she deserves but its tough. Especially when she does things like throwing me a surprise birthday party. I just got done writing the thank you letter to all the guests and its jsut awe inspiring looking back on it. I am a very lucky man to have her as a partner in life. Thank you my love!


Ok what else is going on.... I'm falling behind with website projects and computer building projects. These things used to be some of my favorite things to do, but now they are falling quickly from my list of priorities. It sucks because I am almost done with Zachs site too. I just need to get that thing up and live so I will feel like I am accomplishing something. Its all nice and professional looking too lol. Well, it will be once its live. Then there is Switch's website. A new project. Well actually an old project that is now coming back for more. It was fun working on it and I'm looking forward to putting some new stuff together for him. I think after that I'm done playing webmaster I will focus on getting some of my own neglected projects done. Funny though because my projects also involve building websites and computers. HA!

Hmm what else is going on... Oh ya, we've been getting alot of snow lately. Took the MSR's out for a hike the other day. Nice quiet and a good workout. It was too quiet actually. The whole way up I'm thinking to myself, why isnt my phone going off? No emails? No txts? No pornographic picture messages? I reach the top and realize my phone did not make it. The pocket I put it in was unzipped. Dammit! I didnt want to take the same way down I did up but now I had to backtrack and try to look for a blackberry in 2 feet of snow somewhere along a 2 mile trail. YA right. I was thinking all the way back to the truck about all the cool things my new Droid is going to be able to do. Well, it turned out that I dropped it right at the truck and some guy picked it up. He only lived down the street and called my home phone and left a message. Courtney relayed it to me and I was back in business with my old phone. Its all good. I have some pics on there I really didnt want to lose...